Although Bella's new, the other dogs have taken a liking to her, especially the Golden Shepard everybody else calls Kion. I cry every day, a deep guttural, painful cry. No matter what happens, youll always be Bun Number 1. After an hour 45 mins, she regained spontaneous circulation but was not breathing well. I feel so sad and angry with myself. He twitches his back to the side and cant make curves without losing balance. He must be hating me for getting him out of his comfort zone. Thank you for listening! Its a fucked up confession but what therapist treats their patient by telling them how awfully they are? My husband ran over our 2-year-old dog yesterday. Whether it's long-standing baggage, happy thoughts, or recent trauma, posting it here may provide some relief. I did it when she asked, but I shouldnt have waited for her to ask me. My mom took in a baby bird that was removed from her nest because some people chopped down the tree she was in. Sadly at 5pm Single Dot left me infront of me. ! Maybe that will sink in enough for you to realize the urgency with which you need serious help. Get that nasty secret off your chest or simply use this as a place to vent. We waited in all day for the phone call. On my way to the bedroom I felt her go limp. So many people don't care about animals and they live long lives to be abused, then these loved animals have misfortunate accidents. We've had two rabbits, two guinea pigs, a bearded dragon, two dogs, plenty of fish, snails, two geckos, and four tortoises. I should have just returned home. The little thing would follow her around the whole house. He was such a gentle dog and I let him down. Her first year or two of life was full of adventure and love. The vet called and said we should consider putting him to sleep, but then called me back in 10 min and said nm hes fine he can go home. I hope I'm not intruding too much and you are somewhat O.K. I know its unhealthy and that blaming myself isnt going to move me forward in my grief but it doesnt feel fair for me to forgive myself and move on. She deserved better. I wish I had asked them to give her IV fluids and keep her a few days to see if she bounced back. That was over 12 years ago, and I still feel guilty! The worst part is I didnt know it was still that serious, I didnt think she was in danger of dying anymore. They took 3 but would not take the 4th one. Honestly Ive considered ********* , I dont feel like theres a way I could get rid of this guilt and live like before. You might be thinking "I could have saved him if only I would . I loved her so much. I needed to get a creep away he kept coming to my house and throwing rocks at window or banging on the door, my neighbors complained too. So, I went to the laundry room (which is right outside my bedroom . From the sound of it, you gave that little dog the best quality of life possible. Theres a rabbit warren there so big you can see it on Google Earth. So for the next two days with an excessive heat warning in place I looked everywhere and called out as best I could without irritating any neighbors, I placed her cage out with food and water and rattled her bell she loved everywhere. Most often, we believe we had more control over the situation than we actually did, and this is the cause of our guilt. my father was killed in 2010, which was my senior year in high school and i was never the same. I put a on a glove and pulled it out. But this might be a good read for you.. http://www.aplacetolovedogs.com/2010/06/why-do-dogs-leave-earth-first-a-child-answers/1486596831/. If all of that was awfull to you this is the disgusting horrible part: I try to push one of my dogs with my feet to his home , idk why , he wasnt going by my command . I chose to sleep with her that night instead of my boyfriend. We also experience anticipatory grief, or the feelings of grief while our pet is still living, but we are aware of an . She was the sweetest dog. Good luck, You need to get a grip before this becomes your life. They pumped her full of drugs to reverse the anaesthetic. Sleep tight Lollybun, Special Girl, Special Rabbit, Lollybum, Lollybumby. So we got the pig in july I got a cage and food and waterI taught my kid how to handle it so I didnt have to be bothered. Her visit last November left me feeling good as long as her hyperthyroidism was under control. He was also a master hunter. When my German Shepherd, Hugo, died, it felt like a part of me had been clawed out and torn away. There was nothing alarming although I noticed she was getting a little stiff in her legs and figured it was arthritis. Some were directly responsible for accidentally causing their dogs to die, while others feel like they put their dogs to sleep too soon. Ive read these post and I can tell you all genuinely LOVED your pets. Same happened to me my cat got stuck in the cat door a while back on the collar , and if i was not there to see it she would have died , but after she became deaf on both ears cus i took her to a bad vet that miss treated her ears and made her deaf , i had so much blame cus of that , anyways after she got stuck like that i promised my self she should never have a collar on again , but since she now had become deaf i dident want her to get run over by cars this winter in the dark , cus she cant hear them , so i decided i will risk putting on the collar again so she wont get run over by traffic , 1 january my other cats woke me up screaming at me , she was stuck in the cat door and suffocated to death and its all my fault for putting the collar on her again , i have not been able to eat in 3 days , im so ashamed and feel guilt of her death , never been this sick and heart broken ever in my life , even after losing family members (people) not pets , losing a 11 year old friend u saw and talked to every day , every morning and night before u go to sleep , head bumping love , all ripped away and i caused the death of my beloved cat cus of my choices , u are not alone , this is horrible , the worst thing , i can barely write this without choking up , barely breathe.. Her eyes were sunken into her skull. I can't imagine what it must feel like to you now, even after 5 years. But as I said, Cleo had always managed it and as for Bella she would always wait to be let in or out as she was always so patient. I gave my daughter a friend and took her away in ONLY 2 months. I believe in my heart that Felix would still be here had I reacted faster. Sleep tight. Dreaming that this never happened and that wed still be together in 15-20 years. My poor darling Pixie she was in so much pain and it felt like she was crying out no no when I picked her up to put in the basket to go to vet. Love you and may we meet again. I dont know if he will forgive me because he was too young to die i wish he was left with his family because i couldnt become a good parent to him i couldnt protect him.. im a bad person really theres no one to talk to about my pain.My guilt confession if i were more responsible he would still be alive and this very thought makes me feel guilty. I felt I was forced into a position to have to kill the thing I loved the most in the world and my mind has yet to figure a way to live with it and my fear is that I cannot. Guys I slipped I swear!IMPORTANT LINKS:Twitch: https://www.twitch.tv/loganboisvertVOD Channel: https://bit.ly/3rVIAIdClip Channel: https://bit.ly/3CAVksQDi. So I massaged his front legs and kisses him tried to get him to relax and it wasnt working, he just kept panting and kicking his back legs. I am devastated. Allow yourself to feel the guilt of feeling like you caused your dog's death. It was my idea to bring in the cats, and I knew my wife would go for it. Nov 2, 2013 at 21:57. Many dogs have died as a result of ingesting much more than the recommended dose. We all make mistakes, gosh some huge, I mean posdible life altering mistakes. Im depressed. I feel so guilty cause my cat died like I was cleaning my kitchen table and I tipped my table sideways cause theres bugs on it to get them off not realizing way later cat was there it fell again but on top part flat squished my cat didnt hear it make a sound than after lifting my table I saw it laying there I picked it up panicked took it to the room thought it wasnt to bad than it died a minute after feel bad cause it felt like my fault I just worry for myself and kids after this dont want nothing to happen to them feel like it will come back to me like god will punish me if anything I dont want my kids to suffer but let it be me they dont deserve to suffer but i feel like it should be me hurts me scares me I did a prayer smudged my place still feel uneasy bout the situation I know when I was 9 yrs old same sorta thing happened accidentally my cat got squished under my bed by jumping on it I cried so hard that time its traumatizing dont want any more pets now at all feel bad please lord forgive me hurts bad like seems every thing always goes bad for me my son recently got murdered too why me I just want all this suffering dying to end please. so i would whip his ass, sometimes going to far and really hurting him. Short answer: cover your entire hand in a light coating of peanut butter and offer it up to your dog. . He was on my lap on the backseat and could barely move. I feel I could have prevented it. The vet seemed satisfied. 1965 / 1967 The Girl Who Leapt Through Time: Yasutaka Tsutsui: A high-school girl accidentally acquires the ability to travel through time, which leads to her reliving multiple time loops. I was alarmed and told my boyfriend something is wrong. The sweetest little girl. I feel terribly guilt and sad because I assumed he died by over eating during last week and also i didnt not take immediate action. She just wanted tummy rubs and she was happy, I wish I could trade places with her. Absolutely heartbroken. Alan the dachshund January 2013: Alan, Tatler magazine's "office dog," saw a man approaching the Vogue House, London, revolving doors, and walked after the man. But, I slowly started to neglect her more and more. Animals cant always communicate their physical health;pet ownerscant see inside their bodies and brains. I deserve to feel this way. I thought as long as she didnt have an empty tummy shed be fine. How are you doing and how can you help us with advice. Holding myself. And while my friend suffers a lonely and agonizing death due to my negligence, Im relaxing inside, too lazy to care. I was a bit surprised and felt sorry for her but confident this could be treated and she would feel better. Her head was not available as I had her tested for rabies. Upon review of my vet visit from last year I realized that the findings the doctor reported to me did not match what she told me. They told us she was dehydrated and her heart rate was very low. It was just as if he was curled up in his favorite spot on our cat tree, or even lounging in a beam of sunlight in the kitchen window. In some cases, dog trainers may find that there is too big of a liability and won't work with your dog as a result. I was alone, doing active cpr. I am fixing to tell you my guilt while I am crying and hating on myself right now. I was at the lake for about 35 min. I stupidly placed her on the LIVING ROOM floor. I don't want to go into it but it was the most horrible thing I've ever seen, and I still feel so guilty. He was a member of the family; we'd had him . after a lot of back and forth we tried to get her to land with water from the hose (not a smart move.) I know this is easier said than done and it takes effort to forgive yourself. that's what happens to dogs that die, regardless of the kind of dogs they were. When I did so, I closed the car door. Stiffening up. Likely brain damage. I understand I would not have had much time with her, had the fluids not been given, but AT LEAST me and Buttercup wouldve been spared the trauma. After one hour she lost her breath she died im so dumb i should have taken her to the vet earlier i should have taken an appointment to the vet the day i found out she lost her appetite so that the next day i can bring her to the vet . She knew that her family, although mourning for her, will eventually do the same as Kion's family -- adopt, love, and cherish all the more another kindred animal. In some cases, dogs can display extra aggression as a result of an underlying health problem. No, we are making our peace with it in our own ways, and I cant risk disrupting that. Twinkie had gave birth I could not find the puppies I had found out my friend passed the day before. Because I took him out. (Gary Coronado / Los Angeles Times) 5 / 9 I want to cry, I want to scream and hate myself but Im also just so numb. He did it so many times over the years that my wife and I just got used to it, and took it for granted that he would always come back safe. The worst part of all of this is that he was just across the street, literally less than 100 feet from his home when he died. [AMZN] Jeff Bezos Joined 15/09/2018 Posts 80,103 06:24 PM 25/06/2019 I can only imagine if we hadnt of left him at a new kennel or if wed got him out of the stressful home environment sooner then maybe he would still be here. In the summer months, slugs come out and bait is used to kill them. Not understanding why this is happening to him. I felt like I drove over a small hump and I stopped and got out to see what it was. 1 lbs and 10 oz. Were going to take a trip out of town, you and mama and me. I am not being harsh but wanted you to know, move forward. She was such a good cat and theres an empty space in my heart without her. Life can be cruel. I have really bad depression so Ive told myself I have to stay alive for my cat and my hamster. I was not allowed to go inside due to Covid. It was the first time I used that medicine (drops) and I usually research a lot before giving anything to my dog. Create an account to follow your favorite communities and start taking part in conversations. I will never forget or be able to get the attack out of my head. My children and I had just . He was such a sweet dog he was still wagging his tail in his last moments, laying in a stream of blood. After I basically prepared her casket. Then I remembered she was with me in the laundry room and to my horror I found her in the washing machine. I know this is confessions and what not but i really want to beat the living shit out of you. I just miss my baby. They put her in an incubator. All these whys and what ifs are unbearable. I thought she was quiet because shes never stayed at another house before. She was by my side the whole time. This was no issue for me. I could have moved his head and neck when I saw lifting the chair was hurting him. That was my fault. We thanked her and her team for doing their best for our girl. But hed been losing weight in the autumn and I should have noticed, not put it down to his stress issues in the past. I saw her slowing down in the last 6 months. She said that Lollys chance of living a normal life if she woke up at all was almost nil, and that there was a chance she was suffering. After about 10 minutes he started to move and make for the door, which I opened. I love reading these comments and having everyone ignore a major thing you brought up; you have anger issues. Im so sorry bibble. Then the second time he did this again and i called the vet they said to watch him and if it doesnt go away bring him in, so I brought him in. I dont know what else to say. Highway patrol should have somehow got something to cut through the metal or got someone who could! She said I would have to administer insulin and hypertension meds daily. I turned to take a bite of my soup and I her a thud. If the person lives in the same county as you, then you will sue in your county court. It happened in a split second. We aim to keep this a safe space. She died because she had to have surgery to remove some of her colon and she got an infection gone the following morning. I sent her for necropsy because I needed answers. My mum and sister were on the phone and they told me to let her go. He died at 10 and a half and was otherwise a healthy and strong cat. I'm not going to tell you you're a horrible person because obviously you're already feeling very guilty/remorseful but take this as a wake up call, get help. Not long after she appeared to regain respiratory function, retrospectively I do not believe the respirations were adequate given her outcome but at the time I saw the chest rise and was hopeful. I scooped her up and we sped to the vet, but it was too late. I dont know how to get past this and forgive myself. I run 2 businesses and I feel I have not taken the needed time to love on this absolutely sweet dog God gave meand 2 days ago I was running a fever of 102 up til today. We had 2 choices one to let her have surgery or have her put to sleep . We just lost our 13 year old Yorkie and we thought we would start the new year with a new addition to the family. The other cat came to normal. I dont think I will ever get over this. I was modified and wanted to die in the moment! Seeming eager for playtime or maybe she was trying to get away from this crazy women who was mistreating her. @JoshDM I wouldn't know whether to expect a lick or a bite. He passed at 2 and a half because of me. He was a member of the family; we'd had him since he was a puppy and he never spent a moment without us - from the moment he woke up till we slept, he was by our side. I was worried that I wouldnt be able to get her in her carry-case to get her to the hospital the next day, and if she was super-hungry I could put her food bowl in there with some of her favourite food and shed go inside. I found her decomposing. Jesus Christ, that's fucking rough. He didn't really want us hanging around him but we all stayed with him until the end. My mother in law had kept our son and 6 month old Pomeranian, Bella for us. Six dogs were trapped and taken to Animal Control facilities where they were euthanized. I have 3 cats and one of the other cats was sick during last week and I gave him specilly whatever he likes to encouraged him to eat. I couldnt go in because of Covid-security. Gosh the guilt you are feeling. I feel both at the same time. When you welcome this dog into your home, shower the dog with lots of freedom, and (most importantly) affection. They looked him over and said he was so sickly and he looked like death warmed over. Identify imagined guiltabout theloss of your dog or cat. I feel guilt because of the circumstances that led to his death over the past 2 weeks. I thought it was an empty tummy that was a risk. Surely hed still be alive if I hadnt. I quickly laid her on the bed and realized she wasnt breathing. In that moment I made a decision I thought was best for her. If someone else had suggested to go on a walk with him that day, if your mom had decided to let him off the leash instead of you, if another car had come up behind you and hadn't seen your dog, if, if, if it all still might have happened exactly the same way. More selfish people would skip over this dog for a happy go lucky pet, but not you. Trying to keep her safe, actually put her in harms way and I have to live with this along with the pain and grief I caused myself and my family. I feel like a piece of shit for not taking care of her. Bella understood why Kion was so admired; Kion understood that deaths occur but there's a beauty to it. A week ago my fiance came home drunk, stumbled in at 5 in the morning, tripped over my dog, Jasmine and killed her.She was In my grief over the very recent, traumatic loss of my cat, and the love I have for all animals, I find the comments too triggering to read. so im writing this post because i accidentally killed my dog out of anger. Ive cried more this week than in the rest of my adult life put together. The vet said now its up to her, but the likelihood of brain damage was very high. "Labradors, however, might down the entire bucket." I actually didnt want her at my place because of the responsibility. Looking into this, its linked to diet, exercise and stress. I havent even bought the game but i want to know if the dog dies. Well getting the seat off wasnt the problem. When I was younger my dog had gotten out without me knowing and followed me to a friends house. By [consciously] killing a frog, mongoose, crow, cat, boar, mouse or a dog, a twice-born person . I know how you feel and I'm so sorry for your loss. You loved that he distracted you from the obvious deficits you have for being a decent human. I went there with a tiny bit of apple along with raspberries that was Lollys favourite. Im so sorry you had to go that way. Ive had an unhealthy attachment to her for so long and have felt so guilty not being around her for a while. I chalked it up to age. Looking back on it I remembered my washing machine was louder than normal, but I didnt think anything of it. You deserve every horrible thing that comes to you. I went in, I told her. I spent months searching for the one that felt like ours and finally found him right before Christmas. I saw his body go lifeless. The vet recommended she stay overnight to be monitored after receiving insulin with the hope that would improve her unsteadiness. I wish I could get justice for Buttercup and for myself. My first pet snow a beautiful white cat my friend gave me. She is also strong and healthy and has a younger cat named Fern to keep her active. Accidentally killed my dog!! Its on me. I know it's been a long time but I don't think I ever accepted the loss, and I still blame myself and our carelessness. Its a fucked up confession but what therapist treats their patient by telling them how awfully they are? Please take a moment to read it its the comments on this article that inspired me to write it. Her eyes were bleeding and she was gasping for air. I am here today because my sweet kitten Zoe died today. I was tired from work and lazy, and my wife has depression and was going through an especially rough episode, so we both just sat around thinking or saying we should walk and call for him, put flyers up, etc, but doing nothing about it. But bless her heart she was such a good cat, always letting Cleo eat before her and so patient and would do all her business outside and never craze for anything. I decided to observe her and after 30 minutes of activity I realized the hope I had in resuscitation was followed now with despair. Get help before you hurt somebody. It is incredibly painful. I couldnt catch him. Brutally killing a pet (puppy?) I wish I could go back in time. If only I had been in the basement, I would have heard her squealing for me to help her. He was fond of eating lot specilly fish and meat. Bella felt so much better. And I overlooked the threat that it could pose. For a few weeks I tried to help her heal. Healing after you had to put your pet down often requires forgiving yourself. Recently we adopted 2 new kittens. He seemed to deal with this fine. Grwm storytime : my mom killed my fish | *Accidentally | Mama I know that you're not going to let me get a dog | . I dont know how to cope with the immense guilt I have. Well that was too late for him. A mutually supportive community where deeply emotional things you can't tell people you know can be told. She was getting too use to living with us and I knew it, yet I still wanted to see her fly free. The necrposy showed severe heart disease and thyroid hyperplasia and adenomas, moderate kidney disease, vascular changes and lung damage consistent with hypertension. But they were outdoor bunnies, with constant access to grass. Sleep tight. Her cheery smirk's becoming more familiar to the other dogs prancing with her. It was so careless, but we just wanted to give him a chance to really run. Because I think you have well proven to yourself that you are not responsible enough for that, and personally I dont think you deserve a pets love but that my opinion, but maybe you can volunteer at a shelter or something to help animals in need. ( 3) Depending on the pet's weight, Benadryl can be lethal at doses between 24 mg and 30 mg per kilogram. I feel like I was neglectful of her and took her for granted. I just lost my Tiny, and it was my fault, in multiple ways. I only wish I could have done things differently and could be cuddling my girl instead of mourning for her and feeling this tremendous amount of guilt. Your story made me cry, I'm really sorry. While I couldnt do anything. A man who was shot by his dog in a tragic hunting accident was identified as Kansas plumber Joseph Smith on Tuesday as friends remembered the hunter as a "loving goofball" who made them . I am so sorry I didnt bring him in. You were annoying little Chihuahua but you were only 8 You had so much more love and life to give!!! And you should feel bad and you should get help for yourself so you never do anything like that again. I told the story to the Vet after his death and she told me l, my cat died within 2days of sick and probably he may have eaten some poison. We moved away from the city over a yr ago but due to the pandemic my daughter and I havent made and connections. I also had been neglecting to fully clean him up and bathe him since we were at this new place. Now, Im looking back on everything and it has dawned on me that, for some reason or another, she probably was dehydrated because she couldnt drink after I put the e collar on her.
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